11/12 weeks

How far along? 11/12 weeks
Baby's size? lime/plum
Total weight gain: Starting pregnancy weight: 148.6lbs  Now: 151.8 Up 3.2 lbs
Bellybutton: In
Stretchmarks: I never got rid of the stretch marks from Hailey and Lauren
Maternity Clothes: Nope
Gender: Don't think we'll find out
Movement: None
Sleep: Since the bleeding it's been terrible. I've been waking up at 3:30 and not able to go back to sleep for a few hours.
Symptoms: None. Occasional nausea but nothing bad and the peeing at night has lessened.
Food Aversions:None
Food Cravings: ritz crackers and cheese!
Best Moments this week: Seeing the baby moving after the bleeding (I'm tearing up just thinking about the relief I felt!)
What I miss: Nothing, so thankful to be pregnant again
What I am looking forward to: My doctors appointment Monday. Hopefully we'll have answers from the ultrasound.

As my previous posts show it's been a crazy, stressful couple days. The bleeding has now stopped. I used the doppler yesterday and was relieved to heart the heartbeat. I'll wait until tomorrow to hopefully listen again and then wait for my appointment Monday afternoon. I've been taking it easier since the bleeding started. Normally I walk to work but I'll be taking the car at least until after my appointment. I've also been lifting Lauren a lot less and moving slower at work instead of my normal fast past. I ended up telling the regular staff I was pregnant and what happened. Ideally I would've liked to wait a few more weeks but with what happened Tuesday I felt like they should know incase something went wrong again while I was at work. Yesterday was my first day back and they were on me to stop working too hard and sit down a bit more. It's nice to know they have the baby and my best interest in mind and are willing to help me out when needed.
I did my prenatal blood work yesterday as well. I'm happy that everything came back normal. Here's the results that I care about:
Ferritin: 53 which is great. I'm nowhere near anemic and the iron I've been taking is working
Hemoglobin: 135 also nowhere near anemic as well which means I didn't lose too much blood the other day.
TSH 1.41 I'm thinking I won't have to do this test anymore while pregnant since the results have been great but of course I'll confirm with my doctor Monday. I'm actually thinking my family doctor will call tonight to speak with me about the results.

I've decided to do 11/12 weeks instead of choosing one. The ultrasound done Wednesday dated me at 10 weeks 4 days so based on my dates. I think I turn 12 weeks today and the ultrasound says 11 weeks tomorrow. I'm sure we'll figure out the proper due date later with the other ultrasounds I'll be having. I'm trying not to focus on this aspect. I had someone remind me that even though a lot of people go over 10 days overdue most of the time everything turns out fine. I really need to try and focus on the positives this time. I'm hoping this will be my last pregnancy and I need to start enjoying it instead of stressing about what may or may not happen. In the end I have no control over how this baby will come into the world or when.

Ultrasound

They called first thing in the morning around 6:30 to say that my ultrasound would be this afternoon at 3:30. I was a little annoyed that I had to wait all day but we managed to find the heartbeat with the doppler this morning and I was happy with that. They called back around 8 and asked if I could come in for 10:15 instead. Perfect! My dad came out and watched Lauren while I went to the appointment.

Thankfully the baby was very active, so active it took her a while to be able to get the heart rate, which was 171. I'll have to wait for the report and speak to my doctor to find out if there was a reason for the bleeding but honestly at this point I don't care. All that matter is the baby and myself are ok. If we find out what happened and can prevent it in the future then great, if not that's ok for now.

As for measurements this time the baby measured 10 weeks 4 days. 3 days ahead of the previous ultrasound yet still quite a ways away from my estimated due date. Again, at this point I'm feeling like it doesn't matter as long as everything is ok for the time being. I'm going to try to get them to go off this second date. At least that way I got a positive test 3 days after ovulation instead of day of!

Here's the pic from today. The bleeding has pretty much stopped and is now minimal spotting.

Bleeding

This morning when I woke up I thought I saw a tiny (very tiny) amount of blood when I wiped. I called the doctors office when they opened at 8 and asked if I could move up my Thursday appointment and they were going to see me at 1:20 today. I didn't have anymore spotting since that one little tiny bit first thing in the morning.
Around 8:45 I was entering a patient and when I stood up to take them to the back I felt a gush of blood come out. I quickly hurried the back told them to have a seat and as I walked by on my way to the bathroom asked one of the girls if she could take the when she was done. In the bathroom I started crying. I pulled down my pants and my underwear was covered in blood. The panty liner I'd put on did nothing to absorb all that blood. Thankfully I was wearing black pants. I told that coworker what was happening and she told me she only had tampons not pads but we checked the bathroom and I stole one from somebody. I then felt another gush. After I called my boss and told her what was happening and she told me to leave and not worry about work. I felt a few more gushes as I left work. I went home and changed the now soaked pad and called the doctors office to see if they could get me in sooner. I told her how much I was bleeding and she said to go to the hospital instead of seeing them. I was seen fairly quickly. They did some bloodwork and the doctor came in and did an ultrasound. I was so relieved to see the baby move but it took a while for them to be able to see a heartbeat because the machine was so crappy. I told them that there was a discrepancy with my dates and what the ultrasound said and that I was pretty sure I'd need another one because Lauren caught up as well around 12 weeks. I go for another ultrasound sometime tomorrow to check the dates and see I'd we can find the reason for the bleeding. I haven't had any gushes for 5 hours and the bleeding has died down quite a bit.
Now it's just waiting to see if everything's ok and if the placenta is still attached. I wish I could just have a normal pregnancy but I've given up in that. I'm trying to focus on the positive at the moment. There's a heartbeat and hopefully there will be one tomorrow morning too.

11 weeks

How far along? 11 weeks
Baby's size? lime
Total weight gain: Starting pregnancy weight: 148.6lbs  Now: 150.2 Up 1.8lbs
Bellybutton: In
Stretchmarks: I never got rid of the stretch marks from Hailey and Lauren
Maternity Clothes: Nope
Gender: Don't think we'll find out
Movement: None
Sleep: Terrible! I have a cold and have a hard time sleeping well at night but I've been taking naps with Lauren in the afternoon
Symptoms: I'm feeling pretty good symptom wise. I woke up 2 nights in a row earlier in the week feeling super nauseous so Dan got me a little bit of ginger ale to sip which helped but it only lasted 2 nights from 11-2am.
Food Aversions:None
Food Cravings: None
Best Moments this week: Heard the heartbeat today with the doppler!
What I miss: Nothing, so thankful to be pregnant again
What I am looking forward to: My doctors appointment Thursday

I've decided to go back to my guess of how far along I am. I get this date by adding 4 days to when I got my positive test since the earliest possible positive is 10dpo. I really really hope that the doctor listens to my concerns about the due date. In the end it doesn't matter too much for me right now how many weeks I am. Where I become concerned is near the end of the pregnancy. The discrepancy is 11 days. This means that if we go off what the ultrasound says I could potentially be going 21 days overdue before induction. Never will I let this happen. Dan's mum had a stillborn from going too overdue. If they refuse to induce me I will make sure the baby is monitored VERY closely but I do believe they will try other methods like sweeps which my OB last time refused to do. I'm hoping they will listen to me because the same thing happened with Lauren. My due date was changed due to an early ultrasound then changed back after an ultrasound done at 12 weeks. I guess we'll just have to wait until next week. There's no point worrying about it now, all that matters at this point is that there's a heartbeat seen or heard at the appointment.

Yesterday I asked for the doppler back from my friend who borrowed it. She said she'd bring it to work today and when we got to work she said she'd forgotten, that it was sitting next to her purse but her husband had moved the purse when he went to use her keys. I was a little pissed off considering she told me she was sad to let it go yesterday and we arranged for me to pick it up sometime this weekend. A few minutes later she also told us she was worried because she'd started spotting again this morning (she's 20 weeks) and had been so relieved to hear the heartbeat with the doppler. I thought about it for a few hours then went to her and said at this point in my pregnancy I'm fine with her keeping it a little longer especially considering she should be feeling movement within a few weeks. I don't want to obsess about the heartbeat and having the doppler around will make me use it more then I really want to. All I need at the moment is to hear the heartbeat. I don't want to listen to it every day I just need to know if it's there and then I'm good until my appointment Thursday where hopefully I'll hear the heartbeat again and then I'll be fine for another week. So I went over to her house this afternoon and after about 10 minutes was able to find the heartbeat. I didn't pay attention to how fast it was but it was definitely the baby and right near the placenta. I left and then when I was home was second guessing if that's really what I heard but I have the reassurance from my friend that yes, it was a baby heartbeat and too fast to be mine :)

Nearing the end of the first trimester. 2 more weeks and hopefully this is my last 11 week blog EVER!!!!! After hearing the heartbeat today I'm starting to get more optimistic that this pregnancy may work out. A few more weeks and then we can start worrying about the development of the heart. One step at a time though.

? weeks

I was about to write my weekly blog but I'm getting really confused with how many weeks I am. Based on the ultrasound I should be 9 weeks but when I go back and re read my blogs I noticed that last time I did a 9 week blog a week ago. How is it that I could have my due dates so far off? Now I have to look back and see when I got a positive test.
I took a test April 23rd, 7 weeks ago and it was very faintly positive. I took a digital first response and it said 2-3 weeks on the 25th. If I'm only 9 weeks based on the ultrasound that means I got a positive test the day I ovulated? Something is either wrong with the baby or my dating ultrasound was very off. I see the doctor next Thursday so I'll bring it up then and bring in all my dates in with my again. Hopefully if there's still a heartbeat they'll be able to do another ultrasound to measure in the office.

Ultrasound

I had my official dating ultrasound yesterday. I didn't have a baby sitter for Lauren since my mum had to take my grandmother to see the cardiologist at the same time but she was really well behaved.
The ultrasound went great. A little disappointed to find out I'm only 8 weeks today but all that really matters at the moment is that there's a good heartbeat of 180. I'll move my weekly posts to Tuesdays as that's now my date of changing weeks so no post this Friday.

I'll have my next doctors appointment on June 20th where they'll do another ultrasound to check that there's still a heartbeat. I was hoping to be further along and closer to 12 weeks at this appointment but I'll only be 10 weeks 2 days. Hopefully they'll be able to find it with the Doppler and then I'll get mine back at 12 weeks and that'll be the comfort I need. Uggh I must've found out the first possible day of getting a positive test, which is possible considering how faint the line was. Oh well, there's still a heartbeat!! Oh and my official due date I think is January 14th