I started writing a post this morning about how I wasn't sure if today would be day 1 because I started spotting last night (which I never do) and it continued all day. Finally tonight it became more than spotting. I knew I wouldn't be pregnant because we ended up using birth control most of the month. Originally I was confused because the first time we had sex after my new cycle started Dan brought out a condom. I asked him what he was doing and he came up with a lame excuse. I honestly didn't really want to get pregnant this past month with my half marathon coming up so I didn't argue. We did talk about it the next day and I told Dan that if he didn't want to stop using birth control this month I was fine with it and that I only really said it was alright because he'd mentioned he'd be ok if I got pregnant so I thought that's what he wanted. He told me it had been what he wanted but suddenly when it came time to actually stop using it he just wasn't ready so we used condoms right up until day 20, when I figured we should be safe. We have decided though that this month we wont use any form of birth control.
I just don't feel like it's going to happen right away. This is the first time I haven't been excited or anxious to get pregnant soon. I don't know if it's just because I'm on day 1 but I don't think my hearts really in it at the moment. Maybe it's because for nearly 2 years that's all I thought about. On the plus side I'm also not feeling anxious about the possibility of another heart baby either. Don't get me wrong, I'd be happy to get pregnant this month but I also would be ok if it didn't happen right away. Maybe I'm just preparing myself. I've warned Dan that it may take a little while to get pregnant this time around. I'm pretty sure Dan thinks we'll get pregnant right away like we did in the past but I'm not feeling very hopeful. Last time my cycles were so consistent I knew exactly when I'd ovulate and we had sex accordingly (Lauren's pregnancy). We also did the every second day method to get pregnant with Hailey. This time around because my cycle's so inconsistent with timing I have no idea when I ovulate. We also aren't full on trying either (ie. not having sex at certain times just to get pregnant). These next few cycles will be much more relaxed and if we aren't pregnant by the time we get back from Australia (in May) we'll start seriously trying. At least this past cycle was 27 days so it's getting back on track. We'll see how long it goes this month.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Update
I know I haven't been gone that long but I can't believe how much has changed. Here's an update on what we've been up to:
Lauren:
- She now has 10 teeth (3 molars). The bottom one was the hardest coming in but she's such an awesome teether that she was only a little irritable for a day or 2. The other bottom one we're still waiting for.
-She's started potty training herself! It started off with letting us know when she needed to poo. You can always tell from the look on her face so we'd take her to the potty and she started being interested in following us into the bathroom. She's now nowhere near 100% potty trained, probably not even 50% but she does let us know when she's peeing (she'll grab herself and say "pee!") or if she says "pee pee" we know that there's time to take her to the potty. She doesn't have different words for if she has to poo or pee so it's always a surprise what will happen after she sits on the potty :)
- We've converted her crib to a toddler bed and she's loving it! She happily climbs into bed, we read a book and she drinks her bottle and falls asleep.
-She's a little sponge at the moment. We were reading 5 little monkeys and she kept putting her hand to her head whenever I got to the part where the monkey bumps his head. So I said "Lauren, where's your head?" and she grabbed her head. She now knows where her head, hands, feet, toe, eyes, nose, ears, and mouth are. I can't believe how quickly she's picking things up and she now knows too many words to remember them all. Today she started saying "Oh man" after I said it when she dropped something.
Me:
I've been maintaining my weight (140lbs). I have to admit going back to work it's been a little harder but I ride my bike or walk to work most days so I'm still getting some exercise in. I'm counting my calories through the livestrong website.
Work has been going well. Nothing's really new and I'm happy in my job. There's a chance I may end up being offered a full time position. I'm not really sure what we'll do if that happens. They recently changed how you get jobs within the company. It used to be that it was offered throughout the lab first before it was posted company wide which meant that if you had a part time position within the lab you'd be next in line for a full time. Now it's strictly based on who's been with the company the longest. The loophole for me being potentially offered fulltime is that they're extending the hours which means they may want to eliminate my part time shift or add an extra full time person. I'm not sure what we'd do though because at the moment we have free childcare with my parents. I don't know if they'd want to look after her full time and it's not worth the cost of childcare ($600+/month) for an extra 10 hours of pay a week. Actually I just did the math and it would work out to be $944/month before taxes. It seems like it would even out so what's the point. I'd rather have my child looked after by family and get to spend the afternoons with her then have her in childcare. They're hoping to start the new hours in January so I should know soon enough what their plans are.
I'm still training for my half marathon. I'm up to 17k at the moment. I'm nowhere near as motivated as I should be so I only run once a week (lately it's been biweekly.) I'm amazed at how my body can handle the run after a 2 week break. Only 1 month to go before the half marathon so I'm going to have to really push to run once a week now. The best part is that I don't stop at all! I was expecting to walk at some point during the run but so far I don't need to.
Dan:
There really isn't much new with him. He hates his work at the moment and has started to look for another job. I'm ok with him changes jobs as long as he has something lined up that pays close to what he gets now.
He's going to be an uncle! I'm sure I mentioned this before but just in case Dan's twin brother's wife is pregnant (due February) and they recently found out they'll be having a boy. We're going to be in Australia during February so Lauren will get to meet her first cousin. I'm really excited and very relieved to hear that after the 20 weeks scan it looks like the baby is healthy.
Now for some pics of Lauren:
Lauren:
- She now has 10 teeth (3 molars). The bottom one was the hardest coming in but she's such an awesome teether that she was only a little irritable for a day or 2. The other bottom one we're still waiting for.
-She's started potty training herself! It started off with letting us know when she needed to poo. You can always tell from the look on her face so we'd take her to the potty and she started being interested in following us into the bathroom. She's now nowhere near 100% potty trained, probably not even 50% but she does let us know when she's peeing (she'll grab herself and say "pee!") or if she says "pee pee" we know that there's time to take her to the potty. She doesn't have different words for if she has to poo or pee so it's always a surprise what will happen after she sits on the potty :)
- We've converted her crib to a toddler bed and she's loving it! She happily climbs into bed, we read a book and she drinks her bottle and falls asleep.
-She's a little sponge at the moment. We were reading 5 little monkeys and she kept putting her hand to her head whenever I got to the part where the monkey bumps his head. So I said "Lauren, where's your head?" and she grabbed her head. She now knows where her head, hands, feet, toe, eyes, nose, ears, and mouth are. I can't believe how quickly she's picking things up and she now knows too many words to remember them all. Today she started saying "Oh man" after I said it when she dropped something.
Me:
I've been maintaining my weight (140lbs). I have to admit going back to work it's been a little harder but I ride my bike or walk to work most days so I'm still getting some exercise in. I'm counting my calories through the livestrong website.
Work has been going well. Nothing's really new and I'm happy in my job. There's a chance I may end up being offered a full time position. I'm not really sure what we'll do if that happens. They recently changed how you get jobs within the company. It used to be that it was offered throughout the lab first before it was posted company wide which meant that if you had a part time position within the lab you'd be next in line for a full time. Now it's strictly based on who's been with the company the longest. The loophole for me being potentially offered fulltime is that they're extending the hours which means they may want to eliminate my part time shift or add an extra full time person. I'm not sure what we'd do though because at the moment we have free childcare with my parents. I don't know if they'd want to look after her full time and it's not worth the cost of childcare ($600+/month) for an extra 10 hours of pay a week. Actually I just did the math and it would work out to be $944/month before taxes. It seems like it would even out so what's the point. I'd rather have my child looked after by family and get to spend the afternoons with her then have her in childcare. They're hoping to start the new hours in January so I should know soon enough what their plans are.
I'm still training for my half marathon. I'm up to 17k at the moment. I'm nowhere near as motivated as I should be so I only run once a week (lately it's been biweekly.) I'm amazed at how my body can handle the run after a 2 week break. Only 1 month to go before the half marathon so I'm going to have to really push to run once a week now. The best part is that I don't stop at all! I was expecting to walk at some point during the run but so far I don't need to.
Dan:
There really isn't much new with him. He hates his work at the moment and has started to look for another job. I'm ok with him changes jobs as long as he has something lined up that pays close to what he gets now.
He's going to be an uncle! I'm sure I mentioned this before but just in case Dan's twin brother's wife is pregnant (due February) and they recently found out they'll be having a boy. We're going to be in Australia during February so Lauren will get to meet her first cousin. I'm really excited and very relieved to hear that after the 20 weeks scan it looks like the baby is healthy.
Now for some pics of Lauren:
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Plans for baby number 3
I'm back! I thought it was time to come back to blogging although I won't be writing as often as I did while ttc #2 (aka Lauren!) Here's where we're at with trying for baby #3.
I'm currently on day 4 of a new cycle. We've just decided that we'll stop preventing (using condoms.) We won't start actually "trying" to conceive until January. We've decided to let whatever happens happen because I've come to realize that there really isn't a very good time. Ideally I would like to not have another summer baby and therefore would prefer to not get pregnant in October or November, however if I hadn't gotten pregnant 2 years ago this month we wouldn't have Lauren so as much as a full term summer sucks, it's worth it in the end. I've also signed up for a half marathon in mid November. Although there's a possibility I could be pregnant at that time I've decided we'll deal with that if it happens. Likely it would mean I'd run 5k, walk 1k and repeat. My goal isn't time, just to finish so if it takes me longer I'm ok with that.
I don't really hold high hopes of getting pregnant these next few months. Not just because we aren't trying but because my cycle has been off. Here's the list of periods I've had since Lauren (Aug. 2011)
Feb 4,2012
July 18
August 31
Oct.1
As you can see my cycles haven't exactly been consistent which is really frustrating for me. I'm hoping by January I'll go back to my normal 28 day cycle. If I hadn't gotten my period by the end of this week I was going to go talk to my doctor about going on birth control to regulate my cycle so we could start trying in January. Thankfully it seems to finally be starting to do so on it's own. I think having that perfect 28 day cycle made it easy for us to get pregnant. I knew when I ovulated so I knew when I was most fertile. At the moment I have no clue which is ok because we aren't going to "time" when we have sex anyway. I never really understood how people can say they aren't trying to get pregnant but they weren't preventing. Now I get it. While ideally I'd like to wait a few months to get pregnant, we would be happy if it happened now and I don't feel the need to wait. If it's meant to be it will be.
I'll do an update on what's new Lauren soon. So much to tell you!!!!!
I'm currently on day 4 of a new cycle. We've just decided that we'll stop preventing (using condoms.) We won't start actually "trying" to conceive until January. We've decided to let whatever happens happen because I've come to realize that there really isn't a very good time. Ideally I would like to not have another summer baby and therefore would prefer to not get pregnant in October or November, however if I hadn't gotten pregnant 2 years ago this month we wouldn't have Lauren so as much as a full term summer sucks, it's worth it in the end. I've also signed up for a half marathon in mid November. Although there's a possibility I could be pregnant at that time I've decided we'll deal with that if it happens. Likely it would mean I'd run 5k, walk 1k and repeat. My goal isn't time, just to finish so if it takes me longer I'm ok with that.
I don't really hold high hopes of getting pregnant these next few months. Not just because we aren't trying but because my cycle has been off. Here's the list of periods I've had since Lauren (Aug. 2011)
Feb 4,2012
July 18
August 31
Oct.1
As you can see my cycles haven't exactly been consistent which is really frustrating for me. I'm hoping by January I'll go back to my normal 28 day cycle. If I hadn't gotten my period by the end of this week I was going to go talk to my doctor about going on birth control to regulate my cycle so we could start trying in January. Thankfully it seems to finally be starting to do so on it's own. I think having that perfect 28 day cycle made it easy for us to get pregnant. I knew when I ovulated so I knew when I was most fertile. At the moment I have no clue which is ok because we aren't going to "time" when we have sex anyway. I never really understood how people can say they aren't trying to get pregnant but they weren't preventing. Now I get it. While ideally I'd like to wait a few months to get pregnant, we would be happy if it happened now and I don't feel the need to wait. If it's meant to be it will be.
I'll do an update on what's new Lauren soon. So much to tell you!!!!!
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